He has been an inspiration for a long time now. It has been like that for ages, and funnily I have been only conscious about it in recent times. Funny because I always knew it without actually knowing it; who my pillar of support was, who was behind me, beside me at all times. May be it is a right mix of acknowledgment and realization now. Whatever, it is heartening.
For the background he came from, for the milieu he grew up in, for the upbringing he claims he has had, his tastes always reflected a certain amount of class. Probably this was one of those examples of the fact that environment, no matter how influential, cannot take away you from you. Thanks to him for being his true self. His ear for good sound and consequently good music is near legendary in immediate family circles as was his collection of those HMV plastic marvels. The sheer range of books, the company he has kept and still reads is close to boggling. He could and can quote from memory almost verbatim. I will not disrespect him by saying all this ran in the family, the blood being the same. Yes, it was the case but he still was what others were not. The most delightful aspect is how he has kept pace with changing times, tuning himself accordingly showing immense respect to the new wave, and never in the process losing out on his old world self. This balancing act of his was never surprising for the pattern has been the same across all walks of life. How could one person do it with so much dignity, class, maturity, and cool very well respecting his limitations is beyond my comprehension. His pace has been remarkable, at times beating me to the acquisition of many a material aspiration! He was there when Philips offered its best tape recorders; he was there when Dyanora had a small array of color televisions then. When I, sorry we, wanted to migrate to bigger ones he was looking at nothing less than a Panasonic, when all I was looking was for a Philips multi CD-VCD changers. He understood the need for a big screen with the same ease with which he said yes it’s time for a DVD console. Knowing all this my wish is to set up a small media room for him which will let him stock his collection of books and house a near state of the art home theater system.
This is not meant to be a vulgar display of affluence of any kind, but a gentle reminder to myself as to how he read the pulse sans any contempt, and without being a Luddite. All these actually pale before the tremendous amounts of spiritual, emotional, intellectual maturity he has shown. Why am I even comparing! Make no mistake the times he and I have lived in lend themselves to a classic case of generation gap, a wide one at that. But he never made that chasm look wide, all the while retaining his self.
Kudos!
Yet with all this there was a constant desire from my side to know what went on in his mind. How he felt about things I was giving apparent and obvious importance to. What were his two cents on subjects, and matters I held close to my heart? With all the open communication we have practiced, ironically there was that inexplicable gap. Was he feeling burdened? What hid behind those diplomatic veneers? Or simply was he playing roles? What baffled me was how he could encounter all events, phenomena with such a straight cucumber face almost all the time. I could only mull over.
For all he has done for me, given me, taught me I have never been able to return the favor in any form. The sheer magnitude makes me think it’s even futile giving it a thought. However, after much persistence from my side, and due to a modicum of his own interest, he has relented. I will always feel good about myself for having brought about this change. I hope this is a fantastic beginning or rather a restart if he ever had stopped.
Funnily, to see what the future holds for us I have to now delve into his past. He is letting me peep. I hope we take the journey together.
Mistakes be pardoned, typos be overlooked, punctuation be damned.
appa is blogging.
For the background he came from, for the milieu he grew up in, for the upbringing he claims he has had, his tastes always reflected a certain amount of class. Probably this was one of those examples of the fact that environment, no matter how influential, cannot take away you from you. Thanks to him for being his true self. His ear for good sound and consequently good music is near legendary in immediate family circles as was his collection of those HMV plastic marvels. The sheer range of books, the company he has kept and still reads is close to boggling. He could and can quote from memory almost verbatim. I will not disrespect him by saying all this ran in the family, the blood being the same. Yes, it was the case but he still was what others were not. The most delightful aspect is how he has kept pace with changing times, tuning himself accordingly showing immense respect to the new wave, and never in the process losing out on his old world self. This balancing act of his was never surprising for the pattern has been the same across all walks of life. How could one person do it with so much dignity, class, maturity, and cool very well respecting his limitations is beyond my comprehension. His pace has been remarkable, at times beating me to the acquisition of many a material aspiration! He was there when Philips offered its best tape recorders; he was there when Dyanora had a small array of color televisions then. When I, sorry we, wanted to migrate to bigger ones he was looking at nothing less than a Panasonic, when all I was looking was for a Philips multi CD-VCD changers. He understood the need for a big screen with the same ease with which he said yes it’s time for a DVD console. Knowing all this my wish is to set up a small media room for him which will let him stock his collection of books and house a near state of the art home theater system.
This is not meant to be a vulgar display of affluence of any kind, but a gentle reminder to myself as to how he read the pulse sans any contempt, and without being a Luddite. All these actually pale before the tremendous amounts of spiritual, emotional, intellectual maturity he has shown. Why am I even comparing! Make no mistake the times he and I have lived in lend themselves to a classic case of generation gap, a wide one at that. But he never made that chasm look wide, all the while retaining his self.
Kudos!
Yet with all this there was a constant desire from my side to know what went on in his mind. How he felt about things I was giving apparent and obvious importance to. What were his two cents on subjects, and matters I held close to my heart? With all the open communication we have practiced, ironically there was that inexplicable gap. Was he feeling burdened? What hid behind those diplomatic veneers? Or simply was he playing roles? What baffled me was how he could encounter all events, phenomena with such a straight cucumber face almost all the time. I could only mull over.
For all he has done for me, given me, taught me I have never been able to return the favor in any form. The sheer magnitude makes me think it’s even futile giving it a thought. However, after much persistence from my side, and due to a modicum of his own interest, he has relented. I will always feel good about myself for having brought about this change. I hope this is a fantastic beginning or rather a restart if he ever had stopped.
Funnily, to see what the future holds for us I have to now delve into his past. He is letting me peep. I hope we take the journey together.
Mistakes be pardoned, typos be overlooked, punctuation be damned.
appa is blogging.
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